today i came full circle. i shot pictures from the roof of the hospital of this guy fixing their sign. just stepping out onto the roof gave me shaky legs. i was terrified to peer over the side, as you can see.
and it really shouldn't have been a big deal. i know i was pretty well protected. i wasn't going to fall off the building. my body just freaks out now.
i used to jump off 30 ft. bridges into rivers. i used to jump out of trees into water. i used to get too close to the edge when we went to cliffs at state parks.
but i can't do it anymore. my body just can't handle it. it kind of ticks me off.

p.s. - amy winehouse shares a birthday with me. she is one year younger. she looks really old.













